कह नहीं सकते ......

किसी  की  यादों  में  हम  रहेंगे  की  नहीं, ये  कह  नहीं  सकते,
ज़िन्दगी  की  किताब  में  इक  पन्ना  बन  कर  रह  जायें, ये  मुमकिन  है,
बीते  पलों  को  याद  कर, कोई  नाम  लेगा हमारा, शायद,
आंसूं  कोई  बहायेगा  हमसे  जुदा  हो  कर, दिल  चाहता  तो  है,
ये  होगा  की  नहीं, ये  हम  कह  सकते ......

उम्मीद ....

आँखों के रस्ते, दिल में उतरने की तमन्ना रखते हैं,
दिल की धड़कन तेरी पढ़ पाए, इस उम्मीद में हम जिया करते हैं,
आँखों ने तेरी वायेदे कियें थे जो, उस सरूर में जिए जाते हैं हम,
दिल की धड़कन ले रही होगी नाम हमारा, इस उम्मीद पर  दुनिया कायम है अब......

बेक़रार ...

धड़कन थम जाती है, नाम तेरा जो आता है,
दिल बेकरार हो जाता है,  ख़याल तेरा जब आता है,
होंठ  तरसते हैं  छूने को, दीदार तेरा जब होता है
तरसते है सकूं को सपनो में भी, तू जो हर दम चला जाता है....

आता नहीं समझ अब,  जायें तो कहाँ जायें ?
जिधर ना तू ना ही तेरी यादें हमे सताएं .....

इंतज़ार...

इंतज़ार में तेरे दीदार के, सदियाँ गुजर गयीं,
हंसी की इक झलक को, ये अखियाँ तरस गयीं,
कोशिश  की बहुत, बीते चंद घड़ियाँ तुझे याद किये बिना,
हर लम्हा तू याद आया, तेरी याद में दिल रोया और आंखें आंसू बहा कर रह गयीं....

तू आयेगा या नहीं, कुछ भी तो गुमान नहीं हमे ,
इंतज़ार करते रहे, ये अब नागवारा है हमे,
दिल तो रोयेगा, तुझ से दूर जाने में,
जी लेंगे मगर, चंद झूठी यादों के सहारे...

हमको मालूम है, दिल की हर तमन्ना सच नहीं होती,
भूल जाना चाहते हैं तुझे, बस अब तो यही दुआ है उस रब से...

Dream or Obsession??....

Have you ever wanted something so bad, that it hurts?? A burning desire to get hold of some thing, the mere thought of which makes your heart beat faster, your soul crave and that consumes you every waking moment of the day...a desire, a longing SO intense, that you wish to God that it to be fulfilled; for living without the source of your desire seems like an impossible task....Whether the thing is good for you or not, is irrelevant, for your desire supersedes everything else!!......

Whatever the cause of such emotion be, it is so easy to give in!! for emotions are  powerful things.....It is like temptations like these, were made to test one's self-control and the limit to which one'd go to obtain them...

Why does the heart always crave things that are not under our control?! Like all things material, the love of a certain person, glory or even acceptance by others....Is it life's way of taunting us and saying that, the things we already possess aren't good enough?!! Or is it its way of telling us, that we need to work harder and strive towards what we find better and more desirable??....

Call it desire, need, greed, dissatisfaction, temptation or an obsession, it IS a part of our lives and how we deal with it is, what is most important....And hence comes the need to be able to distinguish, and to find out, if the desire of that thing (tangible or not), is making us a better person or is it consuming us??....

Obsession in essence I have come to realize is a bad thing, for it is a strong desire for things, that'll eventually cause one to take some kind of a wrong action....An action, which in all likelihood will be repented at a later stage in life..... Such unfulfilled desires often cause discontentment, anger and frustrations and hence need to be cast away.... I know! It is not easy to get rid of them,  but they need to be done away with somehow!!....I wish I could tell how, wish to know myself how to have better control over such an emotion.....For an obsession is a state of mind, where the mind is constantly dominated by a wish, a dream....a state, where the person subjected to the obsession, surrenders control and constantly lives in its shadow and doesn't even realize, that his obsession is an illness, which is tiring him and is slowly making him wither away...

A dream on the other hand, is something positive, it inspires you, it gives you space to grow...It gives you a choice to pursue it or not....It is something that you know you might be able to attain someday, if you made all the right moves and worked hard to attain it ....It makes you a better person and it leads you on.....Those who are passionate about attaining their dreams, do everything in their power to get close to them...Their enthusiasm and positive attitude make the desire turn into a reality, for their passion feeds them and they feed on their passion...

I dream of making the impossible, possible, and I WANT to live and realize my dream in my own lifetime. And I want to keep holding onto the thought that my dreams WILL come true one day.....I desperately hope and fervently pray everyday that they come true, but in case some of them die a premature death, which I hope to God, they don't, I hope I'd be able to hold onto the thought which the Dalai Lama has aired, and which I often find myself pondering on - "not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.".....

चाहत...

हम तो हम ही थे, कल  भी और आज भी,
तुम्ही ने देखने का नज़रिया बदल दिया,
चाहा तो तब भी था उतना ही,
तुम्ही ने कल ख़ुशी से कबूला और आज नाकबूल कर दिया....

प्यार आज भी है इतना, की कहो तो जान लुटा दें,
फिर सोचा, प्यार दिखलाने का मौका हम अब तुम पे छोड़ दें,
देखें तो सही,  क्या-क्या कर पाओगे तुम हमारे लिए,
हम तो जान दे सकते हैं; तुम इन होंठों को हंसी लोटा पाओं, बस उतना ही काफी है हमारे लिए ....... 

जुस्तजू

कुछ सपनो ने उड़ कर, दिल में आशना सजा  लिया,
नन्हे  से इस दिल में, इक अपना ज़हान बसा लिया,
छोटे-बड़े ख्वाब  हर पल अब दस्तक देते हैं,
अन्दर आने को सदा बेताब रहते हैं...

इस खूबसूरत दुनिया में खो जाऊँ, अब तो यही आरज़ू है ,
हंसी के कुछ  पल लूट कर फिर से जी पाऊँ , दिल की ये जुस्तजू है.....

प्यार और इंतज़ार......

इंतज़ार ने मेरे प्यार के, मुझे दीवाना बना दिया,
इम्तिहान जिंदगी का, इक फ़साना बना दिया,
मुश्किल बड़ा था यार बिना, चंद लम्हे भी गुजारना,
उनकी यादो के सहारे, हमने ये भी मंजूर कर लिया,
अब तो उनकी यादें, हर दम साथ रहती हैं,
और मिलन के चंद हसीं लम्हों को, सदियों सा बना देती हैं......

ऐतबार...

उनके प्यार का इज़हार सुन,
ऐतबार करने को जी मचलता है.
धड़कने तो बेताब है मानने को,
दिमाग मगर कुछ काशमकश में रहता है..
अब तो दिलोदिमाग की यह जंग ख़तम हो जल्द से,
या तो मिले प्यार और वफा उनकी, या यह ज़िन्दगी फना हो जाये उनपे...... 

ये कैसा रिश्ता....

कभी उनके इकरार ने, तो कभी उनके इनकार ने रुलाया,
रिश्ता यूँ तो कोई न था, फिर क्यों उनकी हर बात ने हमे सताया ?
समझते थे जिसे हम न कोई अपना, पहले उनकी बेरुखी ने
फिर उनकी यादों ने हमे दिन-रात तडपाया .....

मिलन

ख्याल उनके, मेरी दिन-रातों को महकाते हैं,
सोच के उनकी कही बातें, हम मन ही मन मुस्काते हैं
किस्सा यह चाहत का अजीब सा है
मिलन यह जिस्मों का नहीं, दिलों के नसीब का है,
अब हम उनके ख्यालों में हर दम,
और वो हमारे ख्यालों में आते हैं 

सपनो की दुनिया में ही सही, मिल तो पाते हैं .....

Dreaming my life away??.....

I have often heard that we must dream big....I too have dreamed big on occasions, like most, but have either chosen to, or forced myself to come out of the dreamscape, when I realized how fruitless the whole exercise was...I guess, dreamers are people, who believe that their full potential has not yet been exploited by the world, or the ones, who have worked 'hard', but feel that they haven't been appreciated enough...These people are dreaming with open eyes, 'cause they 'want' to believe that there is still hope for them...They 'want' to conquer the world in 'their' own reality, and hope, that when they open their eyes, the dream will take a life of its own and shall continue to live on....

I know, it does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live, but a man needs to dream none-the-less!!...For dreams are a man's way of defeating the reality, it is something that keeps him sane, when the winds of fortune are not blowing in his favor....The transition from dreaming with eyes open, to a state of dreaming in sleep, is God's way of showing that 'nothing' is impossible in this world...For dreams are the landscape where 'reality' meets 'fantasy', but where fantasies prevail...
 

My dreams take me to places unknown, to places SO beautiful that they make me smile even while I sleep :)...I find myself surrounded by faces familiar, and some unknown, and often wonder on waking up, how they all landed there to begin with!!...And sometimes the CRAZIEST combinations of people, places  and situations form my dreams, and I wake up smiling foolishly, sometimes oddly puzzled and at times full of wonderment at what all my brain could conjure up.....

 

Brain, where the dream world exists, I believe is one place, where 'anything' and 'everything' can happen...The only place in the world, where all our dreams come alive, the only place where we can 'make' our own dreams and live them too :)...The last frontier that remains to be understood and if possible conquered ....A question now....Will there be a time, and place, a medium, where what we dream, the instant we dream it, comes true??...Is such a dream scape a possibility or stuff that fiction writers only dream of??...Is there a world out there, that is solely made of the things that 'we' dream of?? After all what is created must exist somewhere, right?.....A world that is totally of our own making, filled only with people, places and things we love...Things inconceivable, yet plausible; beautiful, yet never ever seen before; so fragile and intriguing, that they can exist nowhere else, except in a dreamscape :)....

My dreams have taken me from the top of the world and to the edge of a tranquil sea innumerable times.......Come to think of it I have even dreamed of a tsunami, with me running away from it holding the hand of someone I held dear....I've been inside weird homes, which supposedly form my abode in that landscape...My dreams have made me re-live my school-time-exam-day terror, where I go to sit for the exam totally unprepared!!...I have even dreamt of a room full of lizards, that were clinging to all surfaces and crawling where ever I walked,  and I remember having woken up covered with sweat just thinking about it...I have met and talked to people long dead, and woken up wondering why and what it all could mean?!....I have visited places that I am not even aware exist in the real world!!...Oh, my dreams have taken me places where I COULD NOT possibly ever be!!...

 

I don't know what my dreams mean, or how they might be interpreted by experts of the field, all I know is that they feel sooo real...Dreams somehow make my life complete...And I know that I have no wish to stop dreaming, be it with eyes wide open or with those shut...And I pity those, who don't dream at all, for they know not what all they are missing out on.....I believe, that it does one good to sometimes 'just dream' and 'not just worry about achieving the dreams'. As long as one has the desire to achieve it, one has everything to gain and nothing to lose....So dream on!! :)....

इंतज़ार .....

घडी की सुइयां, प्यार की दुश्मन लगती हैं,
इंतज़ार सदियों सा, दीदार पल भर का बना देती हैं,
ये कायिनात रुक जाये, जब प्यार का दीदार हो,
अब तो रह- रह कर, दिल की धड़कन यही दुआ किया करती है.....

दर्द का एहसास ....

चोट यूं तो खायी है हमने कई बार,
दर्द के अहसास ने रुलाया भी हमे हर बार,
भूल कर दर्द हर बार उठ जाते थे,
प्यार की मरहम से ठीक हो ही जाते थे I

अब दिल को चोट लगती है,
दर्द होता है, आंसू भी आते है,
प्यार तो मिलता है,  मगर दर्द का ये आलम है,
आ तो गया, मगर जाने का नाम ही नहीं लेता .........

Life an Illusion??.....

Do you ever get the feeling, that you are sometimes living an illusion?!!...When things are going great and all of a sudden something happens, that shakes you up, and you start wondering, if it was all a dream to begin with...Was the past an illusion, and the thing, that stirred you up, the real thing?....Or is it, that the present is just a bad dream, and the past was THE REALITY!!.....The past felt great, SO REAL and yet the myth is dispelled by just a few events, sometimes by even a few random words, which you wish to God never happened :(...Why is our faith in things and people so easily shattered?....Why can't we sometimes just ignore, what could just be an honest mistake on someone else's part?.....Why does disillusionment cause so much anger and pain? Does the truth about things and people have to be harsh and painful always? or is the fool's way of seeing the world with a blindfold to be blamed for all his problems?.......

I believe that life is a matter of choices we make...Would LOVE to be the master of my own choices, but are the choices we make in life, as simple to make, as they are thought to be?!!.... Circumstances, the people in our life, one's nature, upbringing and the need of the hour decide what really is going to be the choice a person makes...We can certainly make our own destiny based on our choices, but it is definitely dependent on a hoard of other things.....

Choice, I have heard, is the illusion between those in power and those without....And that makes perfect sense to me..For I feel powerless to make a choice based just on my like and love of things...Does that make me a weakling ? Or does it show that I need to be headstrong about things and pursue what my heart desires.....And what of bad choices we make all the time? Is it okay to make a bad choice just to keep an illusion - for one's peace of mind, a little pleasure and happiness of  another; or is it a crime to live life according to what others expect of you?......Talking of expectations of others, why do they do that? I mean, it is our life and we need to make the most of this gift, then why can't others just let us be!! And let us live a life not of constant conflict, but of peace and quiet....I know, I am living in a fool's paradise, wishing things were perfect, simple and joyful.....But I know everyone would be happier if they just lived and let live, then where does all the complication come from??...Is it from possessiveness? expectations? and the need to be in power?...or is it just the way all things were meant to work in this universe; each and everyone fighting the other to survive :(....

Wish life was simple, quiet, joyful......Wish there was no struggle....I know some might find it boring and unchallenging, but I would call it blissful...Is expectation of  that kind of a life an illusion or a definite possibility??!!.....

खोज....

लोग धुप-छाव के जैसे ज़िन्दगी में आते-जाते हैं,
कुछ दिल को कुरेदते, कुछ मुस्कान दे जाते हैं,
दिलों को रोंदने वालों से डर लगता है,
जो शख्स प्यार की छाप छोड़ जायें मन उसको तलाश्ता है I

क्या ज़िन्दगी इसी खोज में कट जाएगी?
यह तलाश कभी क्या खतम हो पायेगी?
मिलेगा क्या कोई, इस दिल को समझने वाला?
प्यार की बातोँ से दिल को सहलाने वाला I

जो कडकती धुप को छाँव कर दे,
रात को दिन, और दिन को रात कर दे,
ऐसे शख्स को नज़रें खोजती रहती हैं
दिल को सकूं मिले , हर दम इसी कोशिश में लगी रहती हैं
रह-रह कर दिल से आह की आवाज सुनाई देती है
यह आह पहूंचे उस दिल तक अब तो यही कोशिश रहती है ....

ख्वाब और नींद ....

रात के अँधेरे में ख्वाब करवट बदलते हैं,
दिल में छिप्पी सब हसरतों को दस्तक देतें हैं,
कभी गुदगुदाते, कभी दिल को मचलते हैं ,
कभी डराते, तो कभी हँसाते हैं
नींद की इस दुनिया में हर ख्वाब सच हो जाते हैं ....

आंखें

कहते हैं आंखें दिल का आइना होती हैं,
दिल की गहराई में छुपी हसरतें,
हर शख्स का रूप दिखा सकती हैं,
आंखों को बंद कर ले गर कोई,
क्या ढूंढ पायेगा उन्हें ?
वो जो दिल की गहराईओं में रोती-सिसकती डूबती जा रहीं हैं....

ख्वाब

ख्वाब हवा के झोंकों पर बैठ कर आते हैं ,
फिर पानी के बुल्बुल्ले जैसे टूट जाते हैं,
खुशनसीब है वो जो इन्हें हकीकत में बदल देते है,
होंसले और जिद के दम पर
तकदीर अपनी बना लेते हैं I
हमने तो खवाबों को समेटना छोड़ दिया है
टूट न जाये इस डर से आँखों को बंद करना छोड़ दिया है
टूटे ख्वाबों का बोझ अब उठाया नहीं जाता
हर ख्वाब हकीकत नहीं होगा, बार-बार दिल को समझाया नहीं जाता I

आँसू

आंसुओं से कहो गिरना बंद कर दें ,
कदर ना हो जिस शख्स को, उनसे पर्दा कर लें ,
ऐसे बेमोल मोतियों को, यूँ ही ज़ाया नहीं करते,
इतनी पाक चीज़ को यूँ ही पराया नहीं करते I