Life an Illusion??.....

Do you ever get the feeling, that you are sometimes living an illusion?!!...When things are going great and all of a sudden something happens, that shakes you up, and you start wondering, if it was all a dream to begin with...Was the past an illusion, and the thing, that stirred you up, the real thing?....Or is it, that the present is just a bad dream, and the past was THE REALITY!!.....The past felt great, SO REAL and yet the myth is dispelled by just a few events, sometimes by even a few random words, which you wish to God never happened :(...Why is our faith in things and people so easily shattered?....Why can't we sometimes just ignore, what could just be an honest mistake on someone else's part?.....Why does disillusionment cause so much anger and pain? Does the truth about things and people have to be harsh and painful always? or is the fool's way of seeing the world with a blindfold to be blamed for all his problems?.......

I believe that life is a matter of choices we make...Would LOVE to be the master of my own choices, but are the choices we make in life, as simple to make, as they are thought to be?!!.... Circumstances, the people in our life, one's nature, upbringing and the need of the hour decide what really is going to be the choice a person makes...We can certainly make our own destiny based on our choices, but it is definitely dependent on a hoard of other things.....

Choice, I have heard, is the illusion between those in power and those without....And that makes perfect sense to me..For I feel powerless to make a choice based just on my like and love of things...Does that make me a weakling ? Or does it show that I need to be headstrong about things and pursue what my heart desires.....And what of bad choices we make all the time? Is it okay to make a bad choice just to keep an illusion - for one's peace of mind, a little pleasure and happiness of  another; or is it a crime to live life according to what others expect of you?......Talking of expectations of others, why do they do that? I mean, it is our life and we need to make the most of this gift, then why can't others just let us be!! And let us live a life not of constant conflict, but of peace and quiet....I know, I am living in a fool's paradise, wishing things were perfect, simple and joyful.....But I know everyone would be happier if they just lived and let live, then where does all the complication come from??...Is it from possessiveness? expectations? and the need to be in power?...or is it just the way all things were meant to work in this universe; each and everyone fighting the other to survive :(....

Wish life was simple, quiet, joyful......Wish there was no struggle....I know some might find it boring and unchallenging, but I would call it blissful...Is expectation of  that kind of a life an illusion or a definite possibility??!!.....