Is this love?....

Someone once asked me, if I loved my husband? Seemed like an odd thing to ask and frankly not anyone's business to know, and I was truly taken aback for a few milli-seconds, but then I smiled, nodded and said with great conviction, "Ofcourse, I do"!!...At that time, I had no clue at all what love meant...And I'm not sure if I still do!!...Oh!! I do read a lot of books, which talk of love and those going through it all, but I have to say, I don't get 'the you-take-my-breath-away' feeling, every time he walks into the room...and I don't smile shyly and lose my mind, every time he looks at me...I would be lying, if I said, he sweeps me off the floor, every time he smiles at me or talks about me!...I just know, that I like his company and I LOVE hearing him talk :)....I know, that there is a look in his eyes, that speaks to me like no one else can.....A smile, that is meant solely for me, a smile that says, I'm always there for you....And there is that special look which says all that I ever need to know :)....I like saying the words 'I Love You'...and no matter how many times I have said those, I still enjoy saying them again and again, and hope as much, that they'd be said to me too!!....I so wish, men were as good at reciprocating this feeling as us women!!.....

I see some women declaring their love for the men in their life, and their better halves or boyfriends saying the same in return, and often wonder if they 'truly' mean it or is it just a word game for them??...Do they really mean the things they say or is it a show put up for others to see??....There are so many couples who never declare their love for each other, not in the privacy of their room and esp. not out in the public, does that mean that they don't love and care for each other?....Is a public show of affection, for the ones truly in love or ones who want to make a show of affection, to prove a point to others watching on the sidelines? I guess I'll never know!!...All I know is that couples need to show the ones they love, that they DO love, and they DO care...If it a hard thing to say, then find ways to show it, ways SHE'D understand; do SOMETHING, ANYTHING to make her feel special!!...You owe that to her and to each other!!

All I do know is that I like the company of the one chosen for me...He has the ability to make me laugh and he can make me smile, no matter what :)....He knows me inside-out, and makes it a point to make life as comfortable for me as is possible...And I know, that his presence is a welcome sight for me...I get jealous at the mere mention of another women...I know what pleases him, and I can make him laugh at times...Ofcourse, we have our fights like any other couples, as also our share of disagreements, but isn't that something which happens amongst the best of friends?.....I truly am filled with dread at the very thought of losing him, and pray really hard that, that day never ever comes. And then I pray, that I never have to live a day without him; for I would love to die than have to live through another day without him....I don't know if this speaks of my insecurity, my lack of self-confidence or if it is mere selfishness on my part, but I know, that this is how I do feel....And this is what I wish for him - a long, healthy life, full of happiness, love, laughter and a heart full of love for me, and me alone...I wish for HIS happiness and want mine with him. I want to see and enjoy the world with HIM...I know not if all this is love, but I hope it is, for I would hate to have lied to that someone when she asked me "if I loved him ".....